why so good looking!

   

I like this photo. I miss my long fringe sigh. Feeling so guilty now i feel like writing a song! First song written by me just for you all! :)

SIGH.

Its been a long day today! I had only 3 hours of sleep which made me act like a zombie today:/
Ah. And our proposal got rejected sigh. Due to no consistency with the other departments proposals sigh. TIRED TTM.
Ah and it made the excos so sad and disappointed with us. Sigh why do i always make people disappointed:( ughhh.

AND IM HORRIBLE AT EXPRESSING MYSELF SO IT SUCKS TTM. The letter we wrote seemed so plain and boring compared to the other department letters which were touching:'(

I NEED TO LEARN HOW TO EXPRESS MYSELF BETTER.

but honestly, we tried to write the letter really sincerely already:/ Sometimes, trying hard and trying your best doesnt mean that thing will work out the best for you. It apparently doesnt work that way sigh.

Okay shall have a earlier night tonight! Its already 1:35am!
SORRY FOR THOSE DISAPPPOINTMENT I HAVE CAUSED:'(

I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP

Rushing out the proposal draft now with da proposal buddies! dip ICs! :D

Its 4am already and i need my sleep:'(
It looks like we are all gonna have to stay awake to finish up everything the whole night:(

PAIN TTM.

HI GUYS I JUST FELL IN THE TOILET. ITS SO FREAKING PAINFUL. MY HEAD HURTS.

so embarrassing sian. AHYES. I'm skyping now with my proposal people! :D RUSHING OUT WORK LAST MINUTE AS USUAL SIAN.

ahyes im gonna bring my polaroid tmr to take pictures with these cool proposal kids hehe! :D

my head hurts so much :( ouch:'(

okay, early night tonight! nights all!

是逞強或堅強 委屈都自己扛

i love the lyrics of this song '插班生 The Freshman 《逞强》'

its super meaningful. 

有點煩 是有點煩
我習慣沉默對峙吶喊
駕駛盤 隨他去轉
免得說我刁蠻

有點難 真的好難
我們得獨立同時委婉
多脆弱才算適度的勇敢

聰明人對愛很柔軟 內心很強悍
現在懂是否已太晚

是逞強或堅強 委屈都自己扛
我以為那是一種退讓 是一種善良
我站在你身旁 冷靜得像堵牆
把淚水都抵擋 遮住自己傷口的真相
最後誰有心思體諒 （多希望有人會體諒）
我的趾高氣揚 （我的不愿投降）
是逞強或堅強

越隱藏 越恐惶 越是防不勝防
越設防 越逃亡 淪為沉默羔羊
為何不能夠好好愛一場 公平著不需要誰投降

是堅強或。。。逞強

I aint a kid yo.

Got called by excos calling me a kid:/ hallo. In what way do i look like a kid to you? :/ yes i admit im small in size but that doesnt mean that im a kid eh:'( ughhhh. I think its cute that the excos call us their 'kids' HAHA.

Right. And im rushing out my theory work as usual ugh. :/ ohyes good luck evan for your theory exam tmr! :)

Presentation!

Had a presentation with the other diploma in charge today. Honestly the presentation didnt go exactly very well. AND THE EXCOS KEPT LAUGHING AT MY ACCENT. 3.30.

after the presentation i asked my excos what was so funny and why they kept repeating me when i was doing the presentation and then said it was the way i spoke. They said i had an accent when i saif timings like 3.30. I repeated it and they all started laughing again:/

Oh and i read something today and it made me feel like someone trusted me and had faith in me for once. It was a really nice feeling. THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME EXPERIENCE THAT FEELING AND HAVING FAITH IN ME. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH :')

I'LL BE SURE TO DO IT TO THE BEST OF MY ABILTIES AND NOT BREAK YOUR TRUST AND FAITH IN ME! :D

I'VE GOT THE SWEETEST PARENTS ON EARTH:)

I cannot emphasise on how much i love my parents, my family. Recently, these few weeks, i have been ending school at like 9, 10 plus pm and they have always been there to ask me if i needed them to fetch me a not. And my dad would always be able to come down to fetch me or sometimes would wait at the bus stop near my house to walk home with me to ensure my safety.

I LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD.

My mom would always text me to ask if im staying back late in school and ask if i have eaten dinner a not. THEY ARE THE SWEETEST PARENTS ON EARTH. MY LOVE.

RESULTS ARE OUT TMR OMG.

AS THE TITLE STATES, YES. RESULTS ARE OUT TMR OMG. IM SCARED AND WORRIED. please let my results be okay/good. :'( i studied real hard for this exam so please let the results be goood:(

ahyes! TODAY they confirmed the 7 diploma in-charge people and i was selected omg! i never thought that i would actually get selected! hallelujah! damn happy omg! they are gonna announce which diploma we are gonna take tmr. im actually quite excited hehe! :D YES CHERYL YOU SHOULD JIAYOU. :D
although i still dont understand how come they chose me to be one of the ic, but im gonna do it with all i can! :D JIAYOU CHERYL! :D

AND SO, to end off, results coming out tmr. ITS MY NIGHTMARE APPARENTLY. PLEASE JUST BE GOOD TO ME ONCE AGAIN. IM SELDOM SO LUCKY YKNOW. PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE. OKAY GOOD LUCK, ALL THE BEST TO ME AND GOODNIGHT:D

P.S and my fringe is so short already but it still refuses to stand and my friends started laughing at me when they saw me this morning:(

AMBER LIU

I WENT FOR A HAIRCUT FINALLY TODAY. and now my fringe is real short. like super de duper short. i actually wanted to cut like her. 

 But unfortunately, it didn't turn out that way, as usual. HER HAIR IS JUST SO SO NICE. okay maybe its because her hair is blonde and mine is brown and therefore the impact is different. AHWELL. WHATS DONE IS DONE.
OH and i went to the gym today and there was a trainer to train me. It was quite cool but its super tiring. oh and we did so many exercises together and she didn't perspire much. I can only say her stamina is crazy for someone her age. OKAY I SHOULD JUST SAY IT THAT IN OTHER WORDS, I'M NOT FIT. HAHA. that's exactly why i started gymming what.

OH YES AND TODAY WE PLAYED FRIENDLY SQUASH MATCHES. and i won two yay. but it wasn't exactly a satisfying win because they kinda gave up halfway and didnt go chase and get their points:/ ahwell. at least i won matches even though i haven't practiced for a long time!

And i have been talking to Jessica since 9 plus and we were talking about how live in singapore was. Living in Singapore has lots of stress and we had to study real hard in order to survive in this society. Reality seriously is one scary thing. She was saying that she rather study overseas because the environment was not so stressful like in Singapore. For example, in US, the parents there are not so stick in the mud for getting their kids to get excellent results and instead just want their kids to have a really memorable childhood. But in Singapore  most of the parents are getting their children to go for piano lessons, ballet lessons, tuition lessons. This lessons makes indeed makes their future much brighter and they would be able to help out in the society next time. But it lessens their childhood enjoyable times. Have you all thought of what the children actually wanted most? Is it the lessons, the society, or their memorable times with their family and friends?

I honestly don't understand why people are so 'crazy' over getting good results. its like parents are always asking us why cannot do as well as other parents' children. Dont they understand that different kids have different talents and good points? Not everyone is meant to be the academic excellent. its like how sometimes when children bring back their results proudly to show their parents, their parents would always go:" only B? How much did your friends get? " and when you tell them, they would immediately start comparing. OKAY, I understand your point that as parents you would of course wish for your kids to be the best but have you all ever though about how they actually feel? Did you all ever feel that by comparing them with other students. it destroys their self-confidence bit by bit? I, myself am a student and honestly i understand that feeling really well. Its like how its happened to me so many times now that now when i get back my results i don't want to show it to my parents as i dont want to constantly disappoint them. i know as parents you all have a really high expectation for your kids and you all think that your kids dont know about it and are constantly playing around which explains their results. But have you ever thought of why they dont do so well like you expected? They actually know that you have high expectations for them and dont want you to be disappointed with them. but this actually adds on to their stress level which leads to them not being able to focus that well.   This also makes them more inferior when they face you all and their friends in future.

ahwell, what i'm trying to say in short is, yes, results are important but isnt living life more important? Sometimes we should all learn to prioritize and see which is actually more important to you. Friends, family, education, pride or what is it then?

HOPE FOR THE BEST

went to school for fmo planning today! 

and had lots of time to waste so! 

we took photos hehhe!

AND THEY MADE US GO THROUGH AN INTERVIEW :(

i was quite scared at first honestly, but it was informal so it turned out well! :) it was quite funny hehe!

ANYWAY, MY MAIN POINT IS,  i hope to get the role, but EXPECTATIONS BRING DISAPPOINTMENTS SO I JUST HOPE FOR THE BEST. :) GOOOD LUCK PLEASE COME TO MEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

EXCOS I STILL LOVE YOU HAHA.

Just reached home and bathed! its only the third day of going for fmo planning committee and im already staying back to finish up work till 10. BUT I FEEL THAT ITS WORTH IT SOMEHOW. i realised that im still thinking of work that is not completed even after a long day when i reach home. ohno, am i gonna become a workaholic. Its like in a way a good thing and a bad thing at the same time! 

I think my excos are strict in marking the work. but i think its good somehow. EXCOS I STILL LOVE YOU ALL HAHA. ah, AND I WAS SO TIRED DURING PLANNING TODAY AND SO I NAPPED JUST FOR A WHILE AND SHIRLENE DECIDED TO BE A PAPARAZZI AND TAKE A PHOTO OF ME. ITS SUPER UNGLAM AND I THINK I LOOK FAT IN IT. aiya, ahwell!

okay, another long day ahead tmr! fmo stuff to do plus squash afterwards! JIAYOU. GOODNIGHT ALL. :D

Aching all over:/
RAH. OFF TO SCHOOL.

CUTIEPIE YO.

ZENG PEI CI MY CUTIEPIE.
LOOK AT HER, SO ADORABLE.

Anyways,i went for the planning com thingum today and I LOVE MY PROPOSAL TEAM PEOPLE. HEHE. WE DO ALL SORTS OF NONSENSE DURING PLANNING HAHA. SHIRLENE WITH HER SWORD HAH. OH and my objectives word document kept getting rejected:( rah. and then we had to stay back to do the contigency list thing. and i was so tired that i went for squash only at 8 hehe. AND WE HAD TO PLAY MATCHES WITH COACH. i didnt even do warm up or practice ah shucks. After squash arun was being annoying and took my racket and placed it on top of a really high shelf:( annoying leh:( bully me only RAH.

okay gonna go and watch bfb now! TODAY'S YLBFB IS ZHUGUI YOUXIWANG OMG. i have been waiting so long for it already! :D

HANDSOME BOY

SUPER DE DUPER SHUAI I TELL YOU.

SHE IS SO PRETTY OMG

OF COURSE SHE IS SO SUPER PRETTY. MY IDOL EH.

OMG I JUST WATCHED HER EPISODE 娛樂百分百 

2013-03-09 我家也有大明星 曾沛慈. 

SHE IS SO PRETTY I LUB HER. 

She was so super cute in the episode! So silly yet adorable!

and she said there might be a ZhongJiYiBan3 omg. I CANT WAIT FOR IT HONESTLY. ZENGPEICI I LUB YOU. 

KING KING KING!

ZENGPEICI I MISSED YOU SO MUCH!

After a long day of work today, i finally got the chance to blog and watch my show!
OH AND DID I SAY IT BEFORE. MY LOVE FOR OREOS. i came home and saw oreos at home and ate so many at a go. I love it so so much!

OH YES AND ZENGPEICI IS BACK ON BFB OMG I MISS YOU MY LOVE. THE LAST TIME SHE WENT ON BFB WAS FOR ZHONGJIYIBAN2. that was soooo long ago.

I MISS HER SO SO MUCH. ZENGPEICI I MISS YOU A LOT! :) CANT WAIT TO WATCH HER EPISODE OMG.

Hot mocha to start the day!

Grrrrr

EXPO!

Went to work at mbs expo today! met my friend whose pay was 100 while mine was only 60 :( super sian ttm. hard work and had to stand the whole day even during lunch and dinner breaks and only earned 60 dollars today:( 

joined the proposal team for the planning committee for this coming fmo but havent got a chance to go for it and i totally dont understand what they were talking about with the work they had to complete on whatsapp. :/ CONFUSED KID HERE YO.

I WANNA GET A CAP AND A SUPERMAN BELT SOON:) 

MONEYMONEY HURRY COME IN, I NEED YOU NOW. 

AND MY BBY LUO, HURRY COME BACK TO SINGAPORE:( ALL THE ZHUMIS MISS YOU SO SO MUCH INCLUDING ME:(

Early night tonight! A long day awaits me tmr! :( although the money isnt much, promises are meant to be fulfilled to i will go and work tmr and do the best i can! JIAYOU CHERYL! :D

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!

Sometimes, i just feel so so glad to have such cool friends who make my day! :D
what is life without them really.

HI 我亲爱的好朋友们, 我爱你们!
THANK YOU FOR being there when i needed someone to talk to.
THANK YOU FOR bring joy and laughter to my life! :D
THANK YOU FOR being around during the happy and sad moments in my life!
THANK YOU FOR listening to me fangirl about my idols!
THANK YOU FOR tolerating my nonsense and my random acts!
THANK YOU FOR tolerating my

it is really good to have friends like you all around. :D

LOVENA, thank you for being around to help to choose hairstyles, to be my buddy at school!
everything always seem more exciting and fun with you around! :D AND LET ME SAY THIS AGAIN. YOUR HAIR IS THE NICEST I EVER SEEN. JEALOUS MUCH.

HEMA, thank you for being there when i have frustrations to talk about. Its super nice how i can talk to you about anything under the sun! :D thank you for also sharing your troubles and stories with me! :D it was nice to meet you today too anyway! :D memories! i love how youre so loyal to your friends! I LOVE YOU GOODFRIEND.

ZHITING, thank you for always being around when we go out and lead me around in order to prevent me from getting lost HAHA.

NIKOLETTE, thank you for allowing me to fangirl with you! :D i miss physics lessons with you! OMG AND GO TO THE AIRPORT AND CONCERT TOGETHER TO SEE LUOZHIXIANG OMG. :D I LUB YOU MOM. :D

SARAH, havent met you for a long time but thank you for being such a nice buddy in school previously! thank you for being my buddy in sec 3 or is it sec 2! :D ITS REALLY NICE TO BE YOUR BUDDY IN CLASS:D i miss it a lot!

MANDY, thank you for being there to listen to my fangirl nonsense! :D and always allowing me to be myself around you! :D YES I ALSO NEED TO THANK YOU FOR BEING MY 'TOURGUIDE' :D

JORREN, thank you for the rides to school everyday! and thank you for always being able to lift the mood around where ever we are with your nonsense!

LAAVENYA, thank you for being so so nice! so generous! and so pretty hehe! celebrity woah. my super cool popular friend! :D

DIYANAH, thank you for always being around!

AND MANY OTHERS TOO, sorry for not missing out on your name!

need to cut hair!

I NEED TO GET A HAIRCUT. but i cant decide on which haircut to go for. i was think of cutting it shorter like ZHANGYUNJING's previous hairstyles:)

SHE LOOKS SO SO HOT IN ALL OF THEM. WHICH ONE SHOULD I CUT? 

IN A DILEMMA.

Back to visit smss with HEMA! :)

SMSS YO.

Feeling so exhausted haiya, went for camp eagle today and had squash after that! getting fat, so i need the exerciseeeeeee! OH AND I HOPE I CAN GET INTO THE PROPOSAL DEPARTMENTTT. we chose which department we wanted to join for the planning committee today! TODAY WAS FUN HEHE. 

IM REALLY EXCITED TO GO BACK TO VISIT SMSS TMR. :D i miss the teachers, the cheap food! and the environment! :D I LOVE SMSS YO. 

OKAY, i should go and sleep now. I STILL MISS MY LUO BABY A LOT. :( READING TWEETS OF SFC PA AND THE CONCERT ONLY MAKES ME MISS HIM MORE:( 

LUOLUO, COME TO SINGAPORE SOON AGAIN PLEASE! 

Went for the eagle camp today! It was fun. I think the chief trainer's hair is really cool and nice. I wanna cut like that too. I like the way she speaks. And her character is damn good. I wanna be like her. But is it possible for me to be so outspoken? :O

Why so handsome ah?

One day has passed since he left to go to madives for holiday! I miss him so so much. Look at how hot he looks in the photo. OMG.

I love how he can look so cute yet so handsome at the same time.
Why so handsome!

我是誰

Magic Power 我是誰 我是誰 我是誰 完整版

I have always thought of this question. actually, who am i? i think this seems easier to explain in Chinese through the song. it really explains what i'm feeling and thinking. 

who am i? who do i want to be like? what am i in the eyes of others? in life, should we learn to always be ourselves and not hide our true feelings. Actually all of us are unique and therefore we should bravely face ourselves and do what we feel like doing when we still have time. in a way, not to be too proud with our talents and in another way, not look down on ourselves.

ALL OF US ARE UNIQUE IN OUR OWN WAYS. 

I think the lyrics are really meaningful. 

Magic Power - 我是谁 我是谁 我是谁
作词：廷廷 (Magic Power)
作曲：廷廷 (Magic Power) 
我是谁 你是否常常这样问自己
我是谁 总是活在别人的期望里
我是谁 是谁又擅自帮你定义了
你是谁 只有不是自己才安全
为什麽 你以为这个世界很美丽
为什麽 你爱这个世界胜过爱自己
为什麽 这个世界不给你平等待遇
为什麽 到底做错了什麽
朋友都说你太 太 太奇怪
在背后把你当成笑 笑 笑话看
每一个动作都被瞎猜
他们说你是个不能容忍的存在
你想要的很 很 很简单
不过就是最普通的 的 的平凡
诚实做自己有时候很难
但是请你勇敢的试一次看看
无论他们又说什麽 闲言闲语无法伤害我
世界上只有一个我 没人能代替的我
无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的
The most beautiful
会不会 上帝把你的灵魂放错了身体
会不会 是故意整你不是不小心
会不会 你常常都觉得力不从心
会不会 坚持要做自己太危险
凭什麽 难道比较特别就是不对
凭什麽 先下了注解在认识之前
凭什麽 只不过想认真的活一遍
凭什麽 随便就把人定罪
我是谁 这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁 谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
我是谁 我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽

i think we should try and honestly face ourselves although it is difficult. 

we should always remember that:

无论他们又做什麽 小动作无法打败我
我知道自己是最美丽的

Take me for example, people always ask me what i would like to be in future, and to be honest, i actually don't have an answer for that. some people's ambitions is to be a doctor, or a lawyer, but i honestly don't know what i what. by reading this, you would think that i am one with no ambitions in life. i actually have thought about what i want to be in future, but there are many obstacles which i cannot clear which makes me feel that i should change my ambition as i don't have talent in that area. For example, my idols are all really talented people who can sing, dance, host and act. they really motivate me to tell me that it is possible to succeed in these areas as they have already done it. But then i think again, do i really have the talent to sing and dance like them? Its like i enjoy singing and acting but honestly, do i actually do well in it? am i suitable? i think nobody actually has the answers to these questions, but what i will tell myself is, to bravely go and try to fulfill your dreams and ambitions. we should go and look for the answers ourselves instead of sitting here and waiting for the answers to appear as it will never appear. there is no harm trying either. 

from today onwards, i shall:

我是谁 这个问题困扰你多少天多少夜
我是谁 谁有资格决定你怎样才是对
我是谁 我是谁我是谁
我就是我你就是你
认真做自己的人最美丽

DONT GO PLEASEEEEEE

Bby luo is going back today:( just watched his da he chang video and im having a heartbreak:/ im not at the airport somemore:( im missing him so much already:( luozhixiang! :(

Thank you for the really memorable friday night! :) best day ever!

And i really wanna join sfc pa next year:( but why arent there gonna be phototaking anymore? :( i havent even got to hug you or take a photo with you:(