Reality.

I need someone who won't give up on me, no matter how many times I mess up.  But actually there really isn't anyone like that right?  All we really have is only ourselves.  It's like how I don't exactly trust everyone but when I really trust someone, please don't make me regret it.  I rather feel the pain physically than to feel it emotionally.  I act as though nothing is wrong but trust me, I'm dying inside.  Do I need to get away from everyone so no one gets hurt in the end?  I really need to learn to be more independent, so when things happen, at least I won't feel so lost. like now.